wahahaha..i stumbled across this man..and look wad i've got..wahahaha
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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im a perfect galfren..wahahaha..and do i blief this shit..? hell no..wads dere to belive in it for..it ain't true anyway..i suk and dats dat..o man..i jus cant take it anymore.. its lyk..hes totally forgotten but..da memories aren't..i cant stand the sight of his face..cos it brings back the times dat we had..so sensitive eh..haha..but one thing's for sure..deres nothing left..nope..nil,zero feelings left..i dun care..hu eva reads this may tink dat im making it up to gian some pitiness frm u..im not..if u think dat way..jus f**k the hell off..im not happie..yet..im not sad..i jus cant find sumone to talk to..not even my klosest buds..day wont understand..i gave in so much..and i got in return wad shit..pure shit..
wa..todae is sad sad sad dae wor..stuid stupid greece got into the knockouts instead of spain..my spain..haha..tonite..group b's playing.. england eangland suk suk suk..france rok rok rok..haha.. huiling teach me how to insert picture wor..and deb hui lai le!! frm her camp..and teach me how to insert link..hmmmm...(=
i dreamt of sumtink last nite..real real weird..cant sae..if not will ged beaten up by alicious de..haiya..
Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one
tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
commit. In any case, you are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the
hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
picture. You are the one that few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you
deeply and wish that they could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in
memories of better times and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
your tainted nature, your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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hey hey hey..im self-loathing ar..yup..soo true..so true..o ya..i forgot..my cousin got lotsa loves story..hmm..real nice ones..hm..i'll publish one every week..? how does dat sound..?
reached hme at sae round 6+..? yup..went to sch for da claymation course..(clay animation) haiya..deb's not around to dae..shes got her gb regional camp.. *sigh* im missing her alreadi..im drinking milk now..haha..jus downloaded msn 6.2..and i cant see wads the difference between 6.1 and 6.2...*sigh* things are definitely not goning my way this few days..well..cant be helped..heres the next part of the story..
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++[part two]
Until Si went home, then you would come back to me and gave me a real warm hug. I knew it's not real. you were just consoling me. i chose to deceive myself and tolerated what you had been doing. I did not know how long can I hold on but I tried my best as i could. And soon Si was tired of you. she left you and targetted on others. And I was glad cos I knew you had come back to me again. I did not mind at all what you had done to Si but at least you came back. Then I got a call from Si. it's such a surprise that she asked me out and she said to have a talk with me. I went and met her in Boat Quay; and we had a drink. She came asking me How much I love you and I told her I love you very much. I knew your relationship with her, that's what I told her. this is what Si replied,
"Leave him, he's not worthy of your love, you are a good girl. there are much more better guys than him."
I did not take her words although I knew what she said is right. I wanted no one else except you but you did not know. Vin ever came approaching me umpteen times to leave you to be with him but I rejected straight in his face and even scolded him for being an betrayal of your friendship with him. finally Vin then realised that nothing can change my love for you.
"Lighthouse Family - We are gonna be", that's what you always sang to me. I love the way you sing to me. Even after Si's disappearance relationship between you and me didn't turn out well. you found out that I went out with Si and was angry about what she told me and you even reprimanded me for believing in her words even I told you I didn't. And all I always told you is "I just wish to have your love." You didn't take my words yet continuing to hurt despite all the trust I had given to you and all the forgiveness and tolerance I had bear it because of you. I always thought sunshine will once shine on us again after what happened. Who knows since then I found myself going even deeper. I went to Boat Quay almost every night not with you but with Yao and Sin, where Sin was working in the pub we always go.
Apart from my own cycle of friends she was the only one that could understand what I'm going through. I knew she hurts a lot when she saw me drinking alot and crying along the riverside when i got myself drunk. I'm so sorry that i couldn't make her concentrate on her work. that's the only place I could go. the only place where I could frustrate all my depression and the DJ would always got the song I like.
You knew I went there but u didn't care less. You assume that your buddies would take good care of me when you were not around. things between you and went far down the track and once again you betrayed me. Mel, a girl from another poly. you contacted with her when you went clubbing. another wild animal, your kind of girl to fling on and I hated her voice when she voicemailed you. I could even called her up and give her a f**kin scolding but I didn't. I respected you. I remembered you told me once. you are a scorpio. that how wild you are. you were pissed off with me for "betraying" you just because I went out with Si but you didn't even give me a chance to explain. even I did, i don't think you take it either.
You described yourself as a horse. There are you wanted to run freely on the grassland and there are times when you wanted to be in the stable. If I let you off freely, you go wild but I can't hold you on too tight 'cos the rope to you will snap. But all I have done is all for you. I don't wish to disrupt your circle of friends and entertainment and you blamed me for not 'handling' you properly. Time really gave me a torture and everyday I seemed to lead a lifeless life. How I pinned for a call from you every day and night and how much I wish to have your hug when I saw you. I started to get depression, alcohol is no longer a 'solution' for me not only mentally tortured myself but also physically I would do so.
There were times I would start out crying with no reasons. times when I talked to myself and would frustrate all my anger on my hand. I did not know why I did that... but there's no way i could help it. There's a time when I fainted after arguing with you. My family had a dispute that day and i had thought of calling you to tell you how sad I was. i never expected you actually f**k me off and hung up my call. I cried and I fainted. my parents brought me to the clinic and the doctor was so shocked that and saw the wounds on my hand and even warned me that I might die of hypertension if I can't control my emotions correctly. Still you didn't care. I was in total devastation. I knew I should bear no hope in our relationship. at least I'm glad that you finally did this to lessen my pain.
You started to hide your mobile from me. I knew something was wrong but yet you were still careless and let me get hold of your handphone. I saw Mel's messages and yes I got suspicious this time but I remained silent. Finally, you showed your true colours to me. As usual, you went to Mel's house and from your buddies, they had tried calling you and you were asleep in Mel's house. I tried to calm myself down. I bet you regretted for giving me your email password and I got thru your mail and saw your cousin, Bel's email on how you planned to deceive me and betrayed me, how you were going to two-timer Mel and me. i'm sad for Mel cos she doesn't even know my existence 'cos you had told her you were single
I called you and asked you where you were. You sound sleepy and I heard Mel's voice too. You shouted very loudly and even scolded me to "mind your own business".. You made me given up all hope and I finally decide to leave you for good. Do you remember how you tried to hold me back with all your tears? Boy, it's too late 'cos you have made my love for you turned into hatred. all i want to say now is thank you for letting me feel what it means to love. not every story would have a happy ending ..
I would never forget this relationship. i occassionally get into a daze, thinking about the happier times we had together. i'd never be able to feel this way about anyone else. i cannot explain why after all the hurt and pain you've caused me..
alarm didint ring for me to wake up to watch soccer..and dat was at lyk 5..exactly..da time wen da match finishes..haiz..was so unhappy..which led me to think of da unhappy times dat happened recently..and this...
i hate myself for being a fool
i hate myself for being so naive
i hate myself for letting him toy wif my feelings
i hate myself for trusting him
i hate myself for being so stupid
i hate myself for being so pathetic
i hate my life for being so pathetic
i hate my pathetic life
i hate me
i hate myself
i hate myself for using them
i hate it when i cant wake up into reality
i hate myself for not having the guts
i hate myself for crying when he left me
i hate myself for being so useless
HE nvr wanted me in the first place..HE always wanted her..she was beta..always..she could give HIM wad he wanted..HE couldnt get it from me..HE came to me jus to spite her.. HE didnt have to choose me..the price was too high
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i got this story from my cousin..and he got it from sumwhere else..its nice..
++ [part one]
we met 4 years ago in our workplace. I was waiting for my O level results. I did not bear any good impression at all, cos you were too playful, and irritating... and my impression of you was as a lame joker and how much I hate you to get out of my sight. Nov 2000, we started off as colleagues... We often had lunch with Vin and Ling and how often you would disturb Ling with ur lame joke. To Vin and me, you and Ling would become a couple but seems that we were wrong.
I remembered the first day I started a 'serious' chat wif you. I broke off with my bf and you came consoling me then. I remembered that was the first time I saw the 'decent' side of you. the way you talked to me. how convincing indeed. Soon we started to be the best pal at work, had lunch together, and times when you would gave me a treat during break time for my hard work etc....
Jan 2001, you dated me out on my birthday and it was the first time ever I saw the smart side of you. the way you dress and presented yourself impressed me a lot. and was so unlike the one I knew during work. We had a fun time with Vin and your buddies and since then we would chat on phone for number of hours. We would talk about our past in school or in relationship and I remember you told me that you had not been with any girlfriends before.
Feb 2001, Valentine's day is the second time you dated me out. We were with Yao and his gf, Sin; they were always the problematic couple in your circle of friends but they were great people, not only friendly but mature too. they always had arguments even with our presence. I remembered we took a walk in Centrepoint and Yao and Sin went somewhere else. we entered a toy shop and I had told you how cute the soft toys were. and you looking at me, asking me if we could be just more than the best pals. I was shocked but nervous too. I knew the answer straight in my heart. "Yes" was what I wanted to tell you but I was playful. i wanted to disturb you so I replied,
"try giving me half an hour more, I will give you my answer then"
And you didn't get my hint at all and not even attentive enough to catch my goofy grin. I supposed that half an hour was hard for you and I could see how tensed up you were, just waiting for my answer.
Half an hour went passed, I pretended that I had forgotten what you had asked me. I was waiting for your second approach at the same time you were waiting for mine. I remembered how much fun I had teasing you but you were so distracted that you couldn't noticed the grin showing on my face. But then, I knew you couldn't wait any more. the second approach you took and asked me,
" so what's the answer?"
I hesitated. I knew you were hoping for the best 'cos you were not confident enough and finally I smiled,
"What answer do you expect me to give you?"
This question shocked you and I knew that you thought it would be a gone case but then before you got over this I gave you another 'blow' ,
"dear~?"
This is what I started to call you, you had both your eyes opened wide and big and did not know what to do. no expression on your face next but then you were shy too and still even made me had a laugh when you asked me if you could have my hand, and how much I wanted to tease you again when I felt the sweat on ur hand. We became an item and Yao and Sin were so happy for you that you 'caught' me and how they congratulated us as if we were married, we could talk all the time, going out with friends or went clubbing and we would tell each other how much we felt that we were the most happiest couple in the world.
for the first time in my life, I was so sure that you would be the one. I was only 16 at then but I knew exactly what I wished to pursue. no one else had brought the happiness and the way you make me feel.. there's no need for us to go restaurants for a romantic dinner. I was contented enough having you cooking one bowl of instant noodles for me. those were the happiest days you brought into my life and I loved you so much.
So happy we were then.
But I think.... I guess... I had too much happiness.
Things started falling apart or perhaps you were tired of me. suddenly what we used to be contented with was not enough for you anymore. from the top of heaven I fell straight into ultimate depths of hell, you no longer loved me. Si is your classmate. not only she's sexy but she's capable of flings. she took you as her target. you did not resist and you couldn't... you fell into her hands.Since then, you often rejected going out with me and would "save" your time and told me that you are going her place to teach her work. I was confused I did not know how to take it but still i trusted you cos I love you too much. I couldn't make myself suspicious of you. Often when you were back from her place. you were so happy and seems to enjoy a lot at her place. From your buddies that include Vin and Yao, they knew the existence of Si and even warned me about her.
I wanted to confront you but I couldn't. the moment I saw your smile, it made me unbearable to confront you and be suspicious of what you were doing. the moment when you started to tell me "I love you" that even made my heart grew weaker. We were not as happy when we went clubbing since Si's appearance. you would choose to dance with her instead of me. and me? I would dance among with your buddies and other guys in the club. I thought that might frustrate you but it didn't work. To get your attention, I would get myself drunk and sitting along by the riverside of Boat Quay. sometimes I really wanted to have a jump down into river. perhaps by then I would be able to leave a place in your heart forever. I didn't. I can't bear to leave my parents alone........
jolin's Xiao Shi De Cheng Bao
** Ji yi fei zhou le
Zhi hou shi bei shei gei jien dao
Ai de jing deng hao
Wo yao gu dan de shi kao
Hen jiu yi chian
Wo men hen hao
Shi de na shi zhen hao
CHORUS
Wo~~~ Zai ye bu shu yao
Xiao shi de cheng bao
Ai qing she yi ge dong hua
Jia shang wen hao
Dang wo da puo le
Xin li de hui yi ping diao
Sui le yi di de mong na li zhao
Repeat ** and CHORUS
Oh~~~ Dang wo li kai le
Xiao shi de cheng bao
Fa shien you yi shie gu shi yi zen fa diao
Dan wo chuan dao le
Shien shi de ku se wei dao
Ta rang wo de lei wang xia diao
nice hor..haha..im listening to it nw as im blogging..jus borrowed da disc frm alicious..and she took my busted cd..haiya..missing it alreadi..although im always listening to it..haha..wa..jus realized dat i hafen listened to chinese music for sucha long long time..
whoa! my mum jus told me dat shes bringing me to learn horse riding!! ahaha..i lurvve horses..haha..its for two daes..and after dat..im gona be a qualified horse rider..haha..power rite..haha..so happie..waited so long for this dae...hmm..dun care liao la..though im so old liao..*cuogh cough* haha..
tonite got soccer wor..first match is england and da swiss..next up are da french against croatia.. dun nid to slp liao le la..haha..england not important de..france rulez!! (=
yea..beta go prepare..for my late late late nite..gona slp at 5am..(x wa..happie happie dae todae!! ciaos..
wahaha..been stressed recently wor..and i found this story.. (=
"Overworked"
For a couple of months I've been blaming it on lack of sleep and too much pressure from my job, but now I found out the real reason: I'm tired because I'm overworked. The population of this country is 18 million. 8 million are retired. That leaves 10 million to do the work. There are 6 million in school, which leaves 4 million to do the work. Of this there are 1.5 million unemployed , leaving 2.5 million to do the work. Take from that 1,180,000 people who work for government departments and that leaves 1,320,000 people to do the work. 480,000 are in the armed forces, which leaves 840,000 to do the work. At any time, there are 179,000 people in hospitals, leaving 661,000 people to do the work. At the moment, there are 660,998 people in prisons. That leaves just two people to do the work. You and me. And you're sitting at your computer reading jokes!
hey! peepx..da story not bad rite..hope it perks u up..haha..
hmm..todae my fone got confiscated..all mua frens out dere..u cant msg me no more..*sniffs* i exceeded da bill totally..2579 *gasps* and thats onli da m1 to m1 msgs..if im not wrong..there's still more msgs from my m1 to other subscibers..not forgetting mms..? *sobz*..total bill(for msgs onli):$$157 $$ Ker-Ching!! not forgetting my phone bills..50 odd..Ker-Ching²!!
but no worries..i will survive..i'll try..my best..*sniff sniff*
my dae was going on smoothly todae..but sum stupid ass had to come and spoil it..
i finally got over it..feelong soo good bout it..enjoying my day..
then..sumone comes along and plays this assy prank,which leaves me totally humiliated..
next..one of my mates guy..treats me as a peace maker..asking me to tell my mate dats hes dead..he wants to noe wad she thinks..*sighz*
talking to him..reminds me of sumbody..he used to ask me.."wad if im not around anymore..?" gosh..it brings back memories..haha..i shall luff my head off..
back to da story..dat guy..man..keep thinking that she dosent care..i noe my mate cares for alot for him..but i doubt he'll belief me..
im so tired..my mood has not been up recently..abit low..hopefully the up cumming euro will be a bright lite in a dark tunnel..*winkx* haha..
tired le..and hungry..heez..its food finding time..! (=