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Monday, August 30, 2004
im dissapointed - happie - touched - tired
- headache - cash-less - wil be hungry tml -
craving for chocolate - waiting for hols - wild-wild-wet -
tepanyaki - shy~ - homework
- 16.09.04 - training - hardwork
wana be sick - gona - miss u..
lovable me. ! 8:24 PM
Friday, August 27, 2004
wa..todae sch..not interesting..canot go for nimo..dun haf time..todae got chinese tuition..my ass was so pain..cant walk..haha..maciam piles lidat..but its NOT..sian.. todae is not a gd dae..u guys hu noes shld no y..np use telling da whole world out dere.. im not in a veri high mood todae..stay clear..haha
lovable me. ! 8:52 PM
Saturday, August 21, 2004
todae went sch..i saw him! said hi dan i smiled..great huh..but pls note..im jus content by doing this..i dont expect much..argh! confusions! confusions confusions.. but peeps dont worry bout me ok..im fine..no worries..i wont let this affect me.. haha..well..no mood..dun feel lyk writing more..haha..joachim..im being naggy..pls take care k..
lovable me. ! 4:25 PM
Friday, August 20, 2004
i figured out something..onli daniel(mua bestest buddie) and joachim can reali tell if im having a bad dae..so nice..their dere too..as in reali dere..thank u soo much..it reali means alot to me..
lovable me. ! 9:26 PM
im so tired..had fever this morning..walau..headache onli..non-stop de..pain pain..dan so tired summore..after sch got nimo..learn how to be aquarists..fun ar..enjoyed my self soo much..vomit blood. so freaking cold todae..rain and rain..thomas talking to me le..take my pencil box summore..
i was jus thinking..why isit so bloody difficult to haf somebody hold u tight in their arms and never let go..to show dat they reali love u..jus holding u closely is enough.. haiz..
lovable me. ! 8:39 PM
Thursday, August 19, 2004
wa..todae was sick..had fever in sch..i tot i was feeling beta but dring lunch my head was so heavy..painful..after dat..fever came..wa..jus couldnt take it..sprawled on da netball court..so comfortable..wen i reali coudnt take it,i msged my buddie..he came wif panadol..so unexpected..haha..after da panadol i could jump and run readi..i felt so gd.. haha..thanx buddie!! u're da best..haha..and joachim..thanx too! u mus take care oso.. wana see u strong too..haha..came home and ate ice-cream! magmum..with da chocolate coating..yumm..so nice..and i have a splitting headache now..tml haf lit common test..mus take la..if im going to sch tml..go study..pain pain..argh!
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da love story ya..[part 3 of 3]it's L calling... oh no! (my heart beat getting faster and faster) i slowly pick up e call and said "hellooo..." he said "hee, i saw you liao.. you were wearing a blue t-shirt" and i replied "huh?? where you saw me??? why i dint saw you?? dont scare me leh...." (in mind, i was thinking that his height is 1.85 tall.. i should have saw him mah.. he's so tall and i saw his pic before.. why i dint leh.. aiya, i wear so casual and simple.. sigh so paiseh liao..) my eyes still looking around finding tall guy... while talking with him over e phone, i walk toward mrt station.. and hoping to leave e place once... cos i was he spotted me and i dint... when i standing to wait for train... suddenly a guy very tall walk toward me.. i ask him over e phone.. "is that you walking towards me?" he said "yeah, dont walk so fast.. i can't catch you" (aiyo, i nearly cry out) after he heard my voice abit strange then he stop walking toward me.. then he ask me "why you scare of me? am really that scary??" i replied "no.. no... its me not prepared" (glad he's understanding) he said" sorry, if scared you just now.. btw, have you done e thing which you purpose to do ?" i replied"no, cos i came here abit late and e place close liao.. i think i've to come back tmr..." then he said "aiyo, tmr if you come in e morning, i can accompany you if want to, just let me know... i can bring you go eat breakfast also mah" i replied" ok, see how"
after i had my dinner, i log on irc. then as usually i chat with L again.. he said want to accompany me tmr... dont know why i say ok will meet him tmr for breakfast and he'll company do e thing i purpose to do today..
5th of feb, i meet him 8.30am at e same place he saw me yesterday.. after i finished doing e things for my sister... i still never saw him.. sigh he's late... after waiting awhile.. he came and say sorry to me.. then he bring me to a mac to eat breakfast.. he ask me " what do you like for breakfast?" i replied him " hee, whats do you think" he said "wait me here, i know what to get for you" after he bought e foods.. he really bought my fav "big breakfast meal" =) while i was eating, his eyes kept looking at me.. i was so shy that i eat slowly.. i told him not to look to at me but he dint listen.. in e end, i dint finish my foods..
after breakfast, we went for a walk... i still dont dare to see him while we chatting.. and i know that he've seeing me e whole morning... when its about 12pm, he told me he've a lesson later cant accompany me liao.. i was so sad after i hearing he's leaving.. no choice, so accompany him take a bus to his poly.. in e bus, we sit in e upper deck behind last row seats.. we chat happily... he said my fingernails very beautiful.. and ask him to show him clearly... then i said "your fingernails also very nice mah... like gals... heehee" then he say i very naughty.. then we start to play our hands... his hands palm really very big.. cos he play got play basketball one.. then i show him my hands also... and that was e first we touched each other hands.. after that i quickly keep my hands.. (hee, cos i was too shy)
happy times really goes very fast, next bus stop he've to alight liao... sigh, really cant bear it.. before he left he said" i'll call you later, bye" then i replied"you go loh, dont come back hor" he was blur and say "huh??" then i say "nothing, faster go if not you've to alight at next bus stop liao" after he alighted, he see up e upper deck n pretend that i'm not seeing him.. after that i received a sms from him... as usual those mushy sms.. i really enjoy e short morning with him...
then as usual when he go home, he call me.. and we talk about e things happened in e morning.. e way he chat with me still like last time before we met...
6th of feb, as usual he call... i felt there's something bad going to happen.. he seem like something want to tell me but he dont dare to say it out... i asked him why but dont say.. i've a feeling he want to stop e relationship(althought we dint start it but we know we've that feel for each other.. as i want it to start valentine's day.. special day mah) sigh, i play a sad song... and i ask him.. "er, issit... you.. want to.... er.. e song i play now?" he replied"er... ya...." (e song i played a "break up" song" when he said that... i cry over e phone.. he know but he dont dare to say any words.. after awhile, i ask him "why must you do this do me?" he said" feeling lost.. sorry" after i heard it... my mind went blank.. dont know what to do... i thought he's different from other guys.. and i never thought he's also another jerk!~ then i hung e phone without saying bye.... after e call, he ask me to dl su yong kang's sorry listen.. he left me this song only...
from that onwards, he never call/sms anymore.. when valentine's day... i'm at home alone.. he dint bother call and cares for me anymore.. and i dint watch "Marry A Rich Man"... when march 1wk holiday, i dint go tour also... sighz~~ he's really dont want me liao..
so sad.. till now i still cannot forget him...
and i dint tell him i loving him still..
lovable me. ! 8:14 PM
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
todae got netball..play and play..after dat sit down and talk with the seinors..yi xuan and felicia started to dernch each other wif water..soon my team were wet..cept me! haha.. well i wasn't let off..sighs..quoted frm cheryl:"da whole team dies together" wa.. soon..i was drenched too..but,onli my back..muahaha..ah! budddiiee! i noe u'll be reading this..thank u!! u noe..stupid buddy..lidat make me feel guilty..nvm..3 more weeks later.. i'll save up to 30 bucks..i noe wad to buy fer u readi..haha..wa..buddy today study so hard ar..study till nvr cum online..dun bleif..mus haf fallen asleep at home..over ur books..haha..
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[part 2 of 3]
after chatting with him, i realise that its not so diffcult to talk over e phone with him... and i found he really no gal in his mind.. i've think too much liao.. since that day onward, we start to chat over phone everyday.. when he wake up e morning, first thing he'll sms me.. after wash up he'll call me using his hp while taking bus to poly.. then about to start lesson he'll hung my phone and say "i'll call you when i having break time".. after a few hours, he really call me and chat over e phone awhile. before he end e call he said "i'll call you once i can go home.. so wait my call" (he know i am at home very bore nothing to do, so whenever he's free... no matter he's outside, sch or at home he'll call me) ard 5pm he call me, saying he can go home and chat with me over e phone for longer time liao and i wont be so bore.. i was so happy he cares for me... while he's in bus i always want him to say some mushy words to me.. hee hee... he always say it softly.. cos he scare
people might heard it.. and felt paiseh.. but i always bully him say i cant hear it... then he'll say it louder... =p he's so cute....after he reached home, i'll ask him, go take a bath then take dinner before he can call me.. if i dint say so... he'll forget to bath and eat just to talk to me... after he taken his bath, we'll start chatting again..
sometime we'll irc and chat over e phone as e same time.. we really have many things to say.. no ending topic ~~ we not play irc... we do play online game likes, diablo, cs... we're really a pair... what we do and what we think really e same!!as time goes by... i can feel that he love me and i love him too.. he asked a few times to be his gf over e phone and i always rejected him.. its bcos he never seen me before... i afraid he'll regret.. and i'll get hurts again.... that's time i wanted give up and stop talking with him.. he told me not to give up, trust him.. he's different from other guys... he wont hurt me.. sighz~~ after heard he saying those.. my mind changed.. continue to love him deep deep...
one day he told me that he wish to celeb christmas this yr with me (dec 2001) and want to buy me present.. i told him not to waste $$ as no need anything.. and i told him i can't meet him.. cos i've to look after my grandma... he said he'll come over and accompany me to look after my grandma.. i know he wants to celeb christmas with me.. cos i told him before that i dint celeb christmas before with anyone i love before... i dont know what reason and i reject him to come and accompany me.. on e x'mas night (24/12/01), he dint go out with fren... staying at home chatting over e phone with me while i look after my grandma.. over e phone, i told him that i'll meet next yr valentine's day.. he said its so long to see me... i told him that on that day is a special day, you can ask special question mah.. right.. he ans me happily... "ya.. so what u like for valentine's day present.. cannot say no need or dont want ah" then i told him i love surprise... then he said know what to get for me on valentine day.. after that, i ask him whether want to exchange photo before we meet... he told he dont take pic.. then i ask him go take neo card bcos of me...
e next day, he really go take neo card and send to me... while i still finding e most prettier pic of mine.. after i found it, i send to him also...e day after, we received both of our photo... when he saw my pic, he call me hp happily and said"aiyo, you where got ugly.. so cute leh... just like what i thought" (hee, i've no confindent so i say i super ugly to him very time loh) then he ask me"hee, saw my pic liao right.. ugly... u regret liao right?" (at first i wanted play a joke with him, saying he very ugly and i dont want talk to him anymore... )suddenly i've second line, my best fren called(she call me just want to want to know hows L looks like) then i dint ans his question and said "call you later, bye" then i hung his phone... e way i said, he comfirm thinks i mind his looks.. and very sad..after chatting over e phone with my best fren, it has passed 2hrs.. i thought he'll call me but he dint.. althought i say i'll call him later... but last time he'll call me back after a hr if i dint call back... after awhile, i decided to call back.. hee, i pretend that i no mood talking with him... he feel that there's something wrong.. and he tell me that he knows he's not good looking and i've regretted... and i dont need to say sorry to him.. he can understand.. while he's talking sadly... i cannot tahan and laugh over e phone.. he's so blur... then i tell him that i was kidding with him... and i tell him that "hee, dont forget we've a date on valentine's day" now then he know that i dint change my mind.. and our love become deeper...
as time goes by... we still e same chat over e phone everyday.. play online games...
on 31th of jan 2002, he sent me a love letter... it was so sweet and touching when receive a love letter from someone you love.. inside e letter, have some words i'll never forget..he said "WO SHI ZHEN DE ZHEN DE HEN AI NI"... and trust him..althought just a few months, we've chat lot of things.. our past... our plan in future.. and he'll take me go tour on mar 2002 (e 1wk holiday in march) and we even decide what to do on valentine day... this's his first time celeb valentine's day.. and he promise to watch a movie title "Marry A Rich Man" by Sammi Cheng & Richie Ren..
on 4th of feb, abt 4plus... i've to go a place to help my sister do something.. i told him i'll be there... he said he'll be there too.. i told him that we've another 10days and we'll meet up... why so "gan chiong".. he replied no la... just see see only.. while i reach e place, i kept on looking around and wonder will i saw him anot... e more i think e more i scare.. i told myself calm down and go do e things that i promised to help my sis.. just then realise i'm late... guess i've to come back tmr earlier.
suddenly, my hp rings..........
lovable me. ! 9:47 PM
Saturday, August 14, 2004
todae..went dancing..not bad hor..ankle swollen still can dance..last nite so tired.. oso duno wad was happening..fall alseep and wake up again..got flu oso..can die la..yay! finally finsh all da dancesteps le..so happie..everybody noes oso..da auditions are postponed to da week after next..yea! great..seniors dance till so nice..esp xiaolin..veri nice..we steal sum ideas frm dem..guilty! yen hui power.. everybody was great! well done..so tired..nth much happened..jus veri tired..sick too..im hoping to go for da fireworks tml..da girls..e2 gang and daniel..mabbie leonard go..duno..tired..
so long i nvr post love story liao..todae i post..enjoy
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A love story that sprung in virtual space between two complete strangers in the night.. [part 1 of 3]
since i started study in sec sch till before i know L on sept 2001. i knew a few guys, they all say love me, take care of me forever and promise me alot of things but all end up break e promises that they had make. all lie to me and make lost trust on guys.. sighz =(
one night i cant sleep so went irc find people to chat... i happen to join a channel, and get to know some gals younger than me.. they're so nice and friendly... and i start to chat with them in e main for a few hours and dint notice e rest of e peoples in e channel, included L.. from that night onward, whenever its night time i'll log in irc and find those gals chat...
after a few days, L noticed me... he pm and ask me "hi, are you busy?" and that moment onward... i'll just chat with him only.. while we were chatting, i felt that we seem like knew each other long long ago.. i really enjoy chatting with him in irc... he really know how to make me happy and laugh.. =)
since that night onward, i seldom chat in e main with those gals and L will always pm me when i online.. after few weeks chatting with L, i know he's younger than me by 2 yrs old (he's 18 and i 20)... and study in poly 1st yr. no gf and dint love any gal before. he even asked my nos, cos sometime i dint online he could sms me.. he even tried to call me but i'm too shy to pick up e call... =p so sometime i'll pick up e call and hear his voice and i wont talk... i know i very rude.. i thought after a few calls, if i dont talk... he'll angry.. but he didnt! he still can speak nicely over e phone told me not to paiseh, just treat that we chat in irc and feel normal... hee hee... but i still dont have courage to speak up.. sigh...
one fine day, my best fren called me and ask me out for chat.. when i saw her and tell her about everything happened on me in e past weeks... i told her that i can feel that L is a very nice guy.. then my fren tease me say i fell in love with a guy younger than me.. and laugh say that "dont know who say like "older" guys hor..." (i told her before i'll never like/love guy younger than me.. cos people will say i "gao JIE DI LIAN" ") from that moment then i realised i've a crush on L liao... after meeting up my fren, i went back home and log in irc while i go bath... after bath, i saw a pm from L.. and we start our chatting again... after few hours he gonna sleep and he say sorry that couldn't chat with me cos he've to wake early in
morning.. i told him its alright... but he kept saying sorry that cannot accompany me and promise will chat with me longer tmr night... i told him its really ok with me and go sleep.. after awhile he really guai guai go sleep *wink* after he went bed, i check e main got any new topic.. i dint saw any new topic but i saw L quit msg.. it written han yu pin ying... oh my! its saying he miss a gal named, hui something something.. sob sob... my heart like tearing apart.. so pain so pain.. i wanted to call him and ask who's e gal named hui but i dint... cos i know he need to wake up early tmr.. so i dint disturb him and went bed sadly..
the next day, i as usually meet my best fren and tell her that i think L is a liar also.. i told her everything i saw
yesterday night.. she told me there must be a misunderstanding... and told me to ask him over e phone clearly.. (die.. call him? sigh i dont dare... how how...) suddenly my fren grab my phone and said "if you dont dare to call, i'll call him on behalf of you" i told my fren "if you want to, call loh.. i dont scare... haha" (i know my fren type, she's also very shy one..) after awhile she said "hello, do you know who i am?" (i thought she was kidding with me then i shout n scream "dont play le la, i know you wont call L one" then i heard) she said "hee hee.. i'm not e gal la... e one shouting n screaming is e gal la!" after i heard she said that, i can comfirm that she's not playing with me.. i felt so paiseh dont know what to do and say... standing there gon gon... then my fren passed me e phone and i heard L laughing at me over e phone saying "heehee,
i heard somebody's voice liao loh... so cute one" that time my beating very fast.. i nearly cried... since he've heard my voice.. i've no choice and say "hi" over e phone... while my playful fren beside me still laughing at me.. saying my face like an "red apple" oh my! L heard it over e phone and tease me again... (in mind, i was thinking a topic to talk with him.. if not i'll be very paiseh n paiseh... suddenly i remember e purpose why my fren will call him) then i start serious talk with him
me: L, i've something to ask you..
L : yeah?
me: er.. yesterday after u log off ur irc, i saw ur quit msg... er...
L : then... whats you wanna ask... just ask loh
me: er.. who's e gal named hui something something ?
L : huh? got a gal named hui meh?
me: no meh? last night your quit msg leh... (suddenly feel very sad.. feel that he trying to lie or hide something from me)
L : OH... i know what u saying liao.. that's one of wang li hon's song la.. its his new song...
me: (i keep quiet over e phone and think e words he put it as quit msg last night.. and i sing it in heart... oh no! its really wang li hon's new song..) hee hee.. ya... at first i thought you've gal in your mind... sorry mistaken you..
L : aiyo.. i thought you angry me what... scared me you know ?
me: sorry..
L : nvm la.. er, just now that gal is your best fren who you always tell me bout her ?
me: hee hee.. ya...
L : guess you're outside chatting with her.. go chat with her and we'll see each other in irc later k
me: okay.. bye bye
L : bye bye...
lovable me. ! 2:02 PM
Monday, August 09, 2004
haiya..my leg is in bandages again..actualli saturday it was out alreadi..but it was still swollen..so i had ter put it back in bandages agian..wif da bandages,came yucky medicine..ee!! everytime hafta drink four big spoonfuls! bleah! haha..im listening to ocean avenue by yellow card now..so nice..im so confused now..lotsa stuff in my head..my bestest buddy ar..though hes my bestest bud..hes always not dere when i need him the most..haha..nobodie's dere when i reali need them..haha wow..so many things around man..why...? i would like to ask this to U..hais..all of a sudden..i feel regret..alot alot..for wad i've done last yr..and recently..i keep thinking dat..if i did this..and if i didnt do dat..things would haf been much beta.. alot beta..i wouldnt be sitting here alone on national day..feeling like this..why..? haha..my fave qns..i was talking to daniel jus now..so farnie..we were talking bout levin! haha..yes u..haha..i fall down and u suan me..haha..if u're reading this..dun cum find me yea..go look for dainel..he started it! haha..girls, levin's a nice guy! em..why am i promoting levin..?! haha..beta stop it..haha..ever since i started this blog..its like da blog's listening..but deres only the computer screen in front of u..! it feels lyk u're talking to urself eh..haha..i'll let u in to a little secret.. (= u're in my mind =) guess hu..? make a guess..im sure no one can guess..haha..erm..mabbie cept for daniel..? haha..stupid arse..my bestest bud noes everytink..haha..
.:laughters of sorrow and tears of joy:.
lovable me. ! 3:40 PM
Friday, August 06, 2004
wa..canot walk..kuku..my leg so pain..limping around da house..haiya..was sleeping so peacefully til daniel called me..i was not gona answer da fone noe..till i got so fed-up wif da ringing and i answered it..i got a shock! he told me he was cumming to visit..i was lyk..u sure? he was lyk yes..so i just said ok..it was after i put da fone dwn and realised dat i had no keys! when they arrived,moses was wif him..! they waited outside for so long..haha..da maid had to bring da keys over from my grandmummy house..moses pressed da dorrbell so many times..practically wrecked da corridor down and bullied other kids.. when da keys came,they came in and fooled around..momo keep changing channel and daniel use the cane and hit momo..siao..go into my room and momo..went smack down on my bed.. stinky! they jus played basketball..i got green grapes and chocolate! haha..momo ate so much! hmp..haha..after they left,i baked cookies! first two batch all chao ta..sigh..but its okie..after dat..all were veri nice..my cookie so weird..other cookies are supposed to be soft in da center but mine's soft at da sides and hard in the center..so farnie hor.. but its veri nice!
well dats all for now..im gon ao enjoy my cookies..haha
lovable me. ! 5:22 PM
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
haiz..im a failure..so stupid..da maths common test actualli can ged full marks de.. haiya..so sad..i cry..i cried..but i've gotten over it..ha..i;ve decided to work harder man..i have a goal..and im working towards it..chim..haha..
i've decided..wadeva u tell me..i'm gona question u..da result all depends on ur answer.. well..im so tired..ooh! tml got interhse..mus go rally supportors le..taurus will win.. final: saggi V taurus..da final showdown..haha..so bad hor..dun care..nvm de..muahaha.. so farnie..todae duno y..i not happie dan da ppl around me all fooling around..lyk making me happie lidat..no la..i not so bhb de..haha..in class..hl duno how to shoot rubber band.. she me hayley an d cious dwn dere playing..supposed to haf lit test budden we sae tml dan mrs singh sae ok..haha..we were thinking if dere was..we were gona haf "communication" haha..discuss la..but dun haf..dan paly lor..haha..we so funnie.. shoot shoot shoot..dan kena scolding by her..haiya..her period so boring..if not 'take out ur mocking bird! ' or 'take out ur ussr! ' or 'do u want the standing treatment?! ' haha..tapai say all this..aiya..dun sae her la..she actuali veri nice de..veri caring.. (so contradicting hor) haha..sumtimes life is so nice while at times it just suk..well if life's not lidat dan not called life le..ha
lovable me. ! 6:42 PM
Sunday, August 01, 2004
wa..rain whole day..sighz..actualli tommy kor and edmund kor wanted to watch da fireworks.. budden it was raining..saddistic..haiya..
a few days ago,i met daniel..he so farnie..talk alot de..now we're gd buddies..haha.. todae he canot find me..haha.cos i no fone le..(hais)its okie..im used to it.. =) i got tix for I'robot!! yay! i tink..dere's onli two..hmm..who shall i ask to go wif me..? haha.. who wana go..? tag me..dan i see how..haha..todae grand mummy birthday..go celebrate wif her..dinner outside..i had four bowls of desert..yum..and now im drinking milk..haha..wait i shall have my dose of nitrogen..haha..so happie todae..talk alot to my two elder cousins..haha..they veri nice de..sumtimes kuku oso..haha..no la..they're veri nice..boring seh..tml got tuition..after sch got netball thingy..haiya..duno mus do till wad time..dan tuesdae got inter house..mus stay till late late oso..haiya..
i heard stuff lately..duno wad to do..confused..so much on my mind..ta and i oso nvr talk liao..nowadays oso not online..jus hi..one word dats used..when we see each other..nth else..argh..duno wad to do..sumtink else is bothering me too..but i cant sae it out.. well..we've to see how things goes..
lovable me. ! 10:07 PM
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